IN YOUR EYES
©2017 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Left my home in the night
For a chance to make it right
Didn’t know which way to go
There was no way I could know
It wasn’t you, it wasn’t me
What it was, was plain to see
Shouldn’t come as no surprise
‘Cause it’s written in your eyes.
In your eyes, in your eyes
In your eyes.

So I pretended not to know
That it’s only just a show
Thought I’s looking at the screen,
But the movie’s in my dream
I’m not looking for my scene
In the places where I’ve been
Shouldn’t come as no surprise
‘Cause it’s written in your eyes
I’ve got no room left for lies
I’ve got no more alibis
Shouldn’t come as no surprise
‘Cause it’s written in your eyes
In your eyes, in your eyes
In your eyes, in your eyes

In your eyes I have seen reality
There’s no you and there’s no me
There is no one left to be
In your eyes, I’ve stopped looking for the one
Here today and then they’re gone
Now I’ve finally come undone
In your eyes, in your eyes
In your eyes, in your eyes
In your eyes

After searching far and wide
I’ve found true love from inside
‘Cause when everything collides
There is nowhere left to hide
I’m not looking for a ride
I’m just riding out the tide
Shouldn’t come as no surprise
‘Cause it’s written in your eyes
I’ve got no room left for lies
I’ve got no more alibis
Shouldn’t come as no surprise
‘Cause it’s written in your eyes
In your eyes, in your eyes
In your eyes, in your eyes

DUMB & DONE
©2017 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Left my woman, left my home
Grabbed my gun, I’m on the run
Found a new one on the road
Thing I never shoulda done

Dumb & done
Always on the run

Left my keys back in the room
Now I’m coming home to you
Cuz I know I gotta finish
What I started then with you

Dumb & done
Always on the run
Dumb & done
Always on the run

Saw you sitting on the porch
Haven’t given up the torch
Yeah I know I’ve had my fun
That was dumb and now I’m done

All them lessons I have learned
All them bridges that got burned
All them roads where I have been
All them places I have sinned
Every way under the sun
I got dumb and I got done
Still I walk right back to you

Dumb & done
Always on the run
Dumb & done
Always on the run
Dumb and done
Dumb and done

HEY HEY COME AROUND
©2018 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Hey, my love
Hey hey hey, come around
Hey, my life
Hey hey hey, make a sound

Cause I’ve still got a lot to figure out
Cause I lost you in a maze
And now I’ve found
How to come around

Hey, my heart
Hey hey hey, love abounds
Hey, my child
Hey hey hey, stick around

Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey, come around
Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey, love abounds
So come around
Come around

COME A KNOCKIN’
©2018 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

I once knew a place
Where the sun would never go down
I walked all around
With my feet firm on the ground
Under ceiling of sky
That is where I was finally found

I was open and free
and so ready to see in your eyes
Drenched and delivered
It’s warm, I still shivered inside
And when life come a knockin’
I’m finally ready to try
Yes, I’m finally ready to try

Go suntan the faces
That you want to hide
Cause under the burn
I’m still on your side
Peel all the layers
It’s funny to see what’s inside

So we break and destroy
And buy toys with no joy, then we cry
And when death come a knockin’
We finally see all the signs
So we twist and we turn
And we burn and we learn how to love
Yes, we finally learn how to love

I’ve come to a place
Where the moon could always get high
My head’s in the stars
And my feet never touch ground
Light as a feather
I’ll never know whether it’s mine

So I give it away
As we dance and we play in the night
Just like a dream
As we twirl and we turn out of sight
And with one look from you
I was looking to give up the fight
Cause when love come a knockin’
I’m finally ready to fly
Yes, when love come a knockin’
I’m finally ready to fly
Yes, I’m finally ready to fly

WHY I QUIT DRINKIN’
©2018 Paul McCarty, Marina Gutman & Sven Amsterdam

You’re the reason why I quit drinkin’
You’re the reason I found Jesus
Well I got no soul to save
But I’ll save the rest for you
Just cause I love ya

You’re the reason why I can’t stop thinkin’
In many ways it’s just like binge drinkin’
Well I don’t know who to blame
I should take it all the same
Just cause I love ya

Well I tried so hard
Sold my home and sold the yard
Just cause I love ya

You’re the reason why I’m in the program
You’re the reason I slept with my sponsor
Well I tried to play the game
But you found me out again
Just cause I love ya

Well I tried so hard
Sold my guitar and the dog
Just cause I love ya
Yes I do

You’re the reason I went back to drinkin’
You’re the reason I found my inner demons
Well now I know the games
And how I wanted it to end
Just cause I love ya

Well I tried so hard
Sold my truck to the junkyard
Just cause I love ya
But not no more

You’re the reason I am now in prison
You’re the cause of all my bad decisions
Well I tried so hard
Sold my home and sold the yard
Sold my guitar and the dog
Sold my truck to the junkyard
Sold my liver, sold my spleen
I sold everything between
Sold my heart and sold my life
And I sold my soul to the devil
Just cause I love ya

Well I tried so hard
Just to give it all away
Just cause I love ya

GOING BACK HOME
©2011 Paul McCarty

I took a ride on a silver bird
All alone, all alone
Surrounded by people I’d never known
All alone, all going home
Now I’m going back home

I slept for hours between your wings
As it droned, humming so low
Dreaming of nights that I’d spend in your arms
As it droned, humming so low
Now I’m going back home
Now I’m going back home

Head for New Orleans
Guitar on my back but no bags to check
Carrying all that I’ve held through the years
Just to let it all go for you

Yours were the eyes that were looking for me
In my mind, calm as the sea
Counting the hours as they drifted away
With the miles, calm as the sea
Now I’m going back home
Now I’m going back home

Head for New Orleans
Guitar on my back but no bags to check
Carrying all that I’ve held through the years
Just to let it all go for you

Gone are the days that I left behind
Long ago, looking for more
Searching for worlds
That I’d never find
Long ago, washing ashore
Now I’m going back home
Now I’m going back home

Head for New Orleans
Guitar on my back but no bags to check
Carrying all that I’ve held through the years
Just to let it all go for you
Carry it all

LIGHT THE DARK SKY
©2017 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

When our eyes met our eyes
It’s like the whold world stopped
And took the moment in
We looked all around us and we thought
What a funny place to be
So we walked so dep into the night
All the stars were on parade to see
& when the first one fell down from the sky
I knew what I should say

Such a long long way that we have come
I don’t know where else to go
But we should walk there together
Cause I know we will never be alone

Cause you light the dark sky
So the rest the world can see

Well I have listened to the world
And not a word the world hurled
Meant a thing to me
But you showed me the truth was everywhere
You opened up my eyes
So I let go of my illusionary dreams
Faith is just a word to me
And the thing that I was missing all along
Is now so plain to see

Such a long long way that we have come
I don’t know where else to go
But we should walk there together
Cause I know we will never be alone

Baby you light the dark sky
So the rest the world can see
Yes you light the dark sky
So the rest the world can see

AS NOT SOMEONE NEW
©2018 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

I saw you, sitting right there
Just as before, oh, oh, looking for more
Yes, you were looking
Looking for something
Perhaps something that’s new
Or someone like you

And then you caught my eye
Just as I was looking at you

That’s when I knew you saw me
As not someone new
You saw me as not someone new, oh no
But someone like you

I knew you, I knew you from then
Now you’re here again, staring at me
So we talked
Like old time lovers
And we talked for hours of all that we were

We knew, we knew each other
Just as we were
Thousands of talks
Lost in our own inner worlds
Same as before

That’s when I knew you saw me
As not someone new
You saw me as not someone new, oh no
That’s when I knew you same
As not someone new
That’s when I knew you saw me
As not someone new oh no
As not someone new
As not someone new, oh no
As not someone new

MELANCHOLY SKY
©2009 Paul McCarty

As I go, as I go 
And I let you slip away
Oh I know, yes I know 
That I’ll lie in bed awake
As I think and I think 
Of the love we’ll never make
And the strength that it’ll take

To get up, look around 
At the melancholy sky
Sniff the air, hear the sound
Take a breath and start to cry
If you’re gone, then you’re gone
But don’t tell me it’s a lie
I can’t begin to answer why

Love comes on, like a deer in the dawn
Walks up so quietly
And then bolts with a fright

So I turn and I turn 
Cause I long to see your face
Live and learn, bridges burn
Never going to the place
In my mind as I find 
That I never could erase
No I never could erase

Now I drift and I drift on imaginary rifts
Till I fall and I fall 
Then the wind picks up and lifts me again
That is when I was sailing in the air
Could have floated anywhere

Love soars high, like a cloud in the sky
Drifting gracefully in
Then bursts into tears
Letting go all the years
Let it rain… Let it pour

Should I walk? Take a ride? 
Find my way back to your side?
Should I run? Should I hide? 
Should I push my love aside?
Would I dare to confide 
That my arms are open wide?
Won’t you help me to decide?

ELECTROCUTION
©2011 Paul McCarty & John Gannon

For a stay of execution I’d repent
And I’d be strong
To avoid electrocution I’d go back
And right the wrong
But there were so many people in my way
For so long
With my bloody evolution going down

When the morning come
And I could close my eyes to it all
I’d imagine all the wonders of the world
Outside
‘Til the jailer turned the key
I walked the line
To pay for it all
And I’m counting every moment
I can feel alive

2000 volts pulse through my head
But look on the bright side

I will never have to feel that pain again
Or the joy
What a woman’s love could feel like for a man
Or just a boy like me
But for years and years since then I’m looking’ on
Just to find you
So that in these final moments I can feel alive

2000 volts pulse through my head
But look on the bright side
There’s always a bright side
Just live on tomorrow

Твои Глаза
©2017 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman
Translated by Marina Gutman

Ночью дом покинул я
Чтобы не былo все зря
Я не знал куда идти
Я не смог тебя найти
Там не был ты и не был я
Нo в конце все понял да
Не хочу тебе coврать
Все написано в глазах

Твои глаза, твои глаза
Твои глаза

Все вокруг что без тебя
Это шоу лишь без огня
На экран я вот смотрю
Но во снax тебя ищу
Без тебя я бы прoпaл
В тех местах где я бывaл
Чтобы я тебе не лгал
Я смотрю в твои глаза
Там нет места для mеня
Нетy места для тебя
Чтобы я тебе не лгал
Я смотрю в твои глаза

В твоих глазах, все тогда увидел я
Там нет тебя и нет mеня
Никого найти нельзя
В твоих глазах
Перестал искать тебя
Сегодня здесь, a завтра там
Наконец пришел в себя

Твои глаза
В глубине твоей души
Я прошел весь этот путь
Я нашел твою любовь
И в любви нашел я суть
Ничего я не ищу
Мою дoлю подожду
Чтобы я тебе не лгал
Я смотрю в твои глаза
Там нет места для mеня
Нетy места для тебя
Чтобы я тебе не лгал
Я смотрю в твои глаза

THIS ONE IS FOR ME
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Goin’ to get my rifle
Set my sights upon you
You ain’t my disciple
On this we must agree
Trains keep on passin’
I can’t hear you prayin’
The next life’s everlastin’
But this one is for me
Yeah, the next life’s everlastin’
But this one is for me. HA!

Goin’ to get my pack now
I gotta hop this train now
Run across county lines
No you ain’t goin’ to find me
Wheels keep on rollin’
I can’t hear you callin’
The next train will be comin’
But this one is for me
Yeah the next train will be comin’
But this one is for me. HA!

Go on and cut my pride now
Got nothin’ left to hide
No, you ain’t my lord now
And never shall you be
Life keeps on drummin’
I can’t hear you dyin’
The next life will be comin’
But this one is for me
Yeah, the next life will be comin’
But this one is for me. HA!

Go on and get salvation
If that’s your motivation
The next life’s everlastin’
But this one is for me
The next life’s everlastin’
But this one is for me. HA!

The next life’s everlastin’
But this one is for me
Yeah, the next life’s everlastin’
But this one is for me. HA!

SHADOWS & LIGHTS
©2016 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

I don’t like being afraid of you
But I see you better than the rest
I hear all of the words you say
And I feel like I’m put to the test
The things that you are afraid to say
You showed me when you made me look a fool
Well, it’s lies that hurt all the time, my love
The truth will only hurt once

Cause in a world full of lies
Where most tears will end in goodbyes
The truth is my only disguise
Just look in my eyes
It’s all shadows and lights

Your shadows once were a thrill to me
But everything comes with a price
You said that we were never meant to be
But I felt like throwing the dice
The day when it all went awry for me
Was the day that you promised would come
The one thing that we could not foresee
Was the place where the truth would come from

Don’t look away as the rising sun
Comes up inside of you
And your shadows melt away
Don’t you know that the water’s rushing up
Just to wash it all away
So don’t look away

Now I know I don’t need to be afraid of you
My heart still knows love the best
And inside all of the lies you told
The truth was coming to rest

SMALL THINGS
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Where do you go?
Where do you go when I call you?
How would you know?
How would you know when I fall for you?
Time tears away
all the small things that were all in vain
Can’t be afraid. I can let go.
I held on too long

‘Cause now, we’re lost in a whole ‘nother story
So why do we spend all our lives
chasing shallow dreams
And it seems like forever we held it together
Till it all falls down
In the end it was all small things

I wish I could say…
Wish I could say how I loved you
But time doesn’t wait.
Time just goes passing by fools like me
I wish I could write
I’d write us a whole different chapter
But what’d be the point.
It’s lost to the past
We’re just looking back

I just want it to be real.
I feel like I’m just writing fiction
Just don’t look away.
We could wake up and it’s all a dream

SAYING GOODBYE
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Out of the last one
Into the next
And I’m in love again
Back in the motion,
Though I can’t drive.
Right, I should’ve left

Out of the costume
I’m wearing you
I’m in trouble still
Back in your life
Not really here
So I’m saying goodbye
Saying goodbye

It won’t be the first
It won’t be the last
It won’t be the worst
I’ll do it so fast
Push on the gas
Watch me go past
As I’m saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Yes, I’m saying goodbye

Out of my head
Back in your bed
I’m shivering again
Back in your arms
Is in the past
Today’s ‘nother day.

Out of my skin
I’m in too deep
Well is running dry
Reach out your hand
I’m drifting away
And I’m saying goodbye
Saying goodbye

WILD JUNKIE DREAM
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

I’m waking up to my wild junkie dream
You won’t believe all the things I did see
How could you?
But they were true
Daylight for you was a nightmare for me
All my bad dreams were just your fantasy
You pulled my strings
So easily

Oooh…. It’s too late. Sealed my fate

I spend my daze in my wild junkie dream
Don’t you pretend you don’t know what I mean
Cuz you were there
Let’s be fair
You looked at me, but your face was all wrong
Your body was here, but your heart and your soul
Were long gone.
What have I done?

Oooh…. It’s too late. Sealed my fate

When the daylight fades you can see everything
All the lies that shine within
After all these years without a doubt
That’s what we’re living in
And the only way to keep it out
Is never to breathe in

I’m dozing off to my wild junkie dream
You don’t remember where to begin
You can stay
Or show the way.

Oooh… It’s too late. Sealed my fate.
Oooh… It’s too late. Half past eight

FREE
Written by Yury Loza (Юрий Лоза – Плот)
Translated by Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

Far on my raft I sail
Storms will surely lie before me
Blown along by all my fantasies
And everything I dreamed of as a child
I sail silently away
I know the stars above will guide me
Pray the dark of night will hide me
So I can live to rhyme another day

And I’ll never go back now
Knowing the world that surrounds me
All my regrets sink away from me
I’m free now, I’m free, yes I’m free
Don’t you try to understand me
No, I have nothing left to run from
You may feel better on the shoreline
But I can feel it drifting from my mind

And I’ll never go back now
Knowing the world that surrounds me
All my regrets sink away from me
I’m free now, I’m free, yes I’m free
I stare deeply ever forward
Never reaching the horizon
I’ve cut every tie that held me
Now I belong to the sea

And I’ll never go back now
Knowing the world that surrounds me
All my regrets sink away from me
I’m free now, I’m free, yes I’m free
No I’ll never go back now
Knowing the world that surrounds me
All my regrets sink away from me
I’m free now, I’m free, yes I’m free
I’m free now, I’m free, yes I’m free

DARK
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

When I close my eyes
And I whisper to the spirit
standing over me
Didn’t realize
There was something really different
coming over me
There’s no one here
As I fall to you again
When I feel you near
All my fears
Begin to rain

And it’s turning
Dark
Dark
Dark
When we come apart
It’s just so dark
In here is only fear
Like tears rolling down
Like rain they’re rolling down
They drown, they drown

There will be a first time
When you feel there is someone watching over you
It’ll be the last time
When you think the Universe has gotten over you

I’m always here
As you fall to me again
When you feel me near
All your fears
Begin to rain

HIGH ON THE WATER
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

High on the water
So high on the water
How high on the water
Sail away, sail away

Lightning storms on the water
Where the ships, once sailed
Still live down there
Where the sun can barely see
Tattered sails all drift away
Like distant dreams fade in the day
On the shores of make believe

Sailing high on the water
So high on the water
How high on the water
Sail away

Thunder rolls on the open seas
My heart, once drowned, still sits down there
Where the soul can barely breathe
Buried lies all gasp for air
And stir things up I left down there
As the waves are crashing in

Cause maybe it’s nothing at all
I can drown and answer the call
In the night and the shadows of the day
It’s all the same. It’s all the same

TURN AROUND
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

I’ve got my seven rays to heaven
And seven ways to hell
But that’s a road I only know too well
Cause after all my good intentions
To answer all the questions
I didn’t see it coming when I fell

Wandering through confusion
Has shattered my illusions apart
And torn me down
And it’s all breaking apart
Back to the start and turn around
And turn around

So now I turn to face my demons
Those things that I believed in
They disappeared when I turned on the light
Finally let go of my pretension
Of all my misconceptions
Cause yesterday I broke through heaven’s door
Forevermore

MAMA
©2009 Paul McCarty

I looked for a way
I wanted to say
But it’s like foreign words to me
There will come a day
When I will break my silence
Live up to my conscience
Then mama, I’ll turn to you and ask
where have you gone on to, alas
Will I ever hear your voice in this world?

So I turn my head
Cause it could never be said
What stolen dreams I had
I give back to you
There’s still some sorrow
Closure I’d borrow
But mama, you knew what I could be
There’s so much that only you could see
Will I ever hear your voice in this world?

No, no, no, no, no, please no.
No, no, no, no, no, please no.

Cause everyone stumbles
But only I’d crumble
Nobody was there to bring me back
Where were you then?
So I cry to the walls
No one answers my calls
But mama, you’re always in my heart
When the whole world has fallen apart
Will I ever hear your voice in this world?

No, no, no, no, no, please no.
No, no, no, no, no, please no.
Will I ever hear your voice again?

NOT TWO
©2015 Paul McCarty & Marina Gutman

In the moonlight we were walking
And the stars were out and talking
In the moment light is fading
Not you

Every breath that we have taken
In the morning we awaken
Every moment
One was not two

No illusions, no mistaking
Every moment we are making is true

In the sunlight we were dancing
And the clouds were out romancing
I don’t need to be shaded from you